[stamford]

I admire your guts in posting this Alan, that is a huge step in itself. Can I also say to those already posted what a great bunch you are, some great words of wisdom have been posted so take heed Alan as some have said you are not alone as not all men can vent their feelings. I'm sure there are alot of folk on here who are feeling what you are, some have been there and some are probably thinking 'that's me'. Take each day as it comes and set yourself daily goals to move yourself forward. Might pay to take advice from those that have offered it, you have everything to gain.