[marts66]

Mate, you are not alone. I had a nervous breakdown a while ago and thought my world was ending. I had hidden this from myself and others for what seemed an age and one day couldn't go on. I felt like a dam had burst, cried for a whole day and felt like ending it all. You need to see someone, i went to my GP and she was great, cried my way through a 30 minute consulatation but ultimately felt better. There's no shame in getting some treatment, if you had a broken leg you'd get it plastered, if you had a headache you'd take a pill. Mental health issues effect one in four people so you really are not alone. My GP refereed me to an employment specialist as well as a therapist, the employment service can help in many different ways, you'd be surprised and the therapist helped as you'll need someone to impartial to talk to. If you want to talk to someone PM me and we can get phone numbers and have a chat mate. But do something and remeber you are most definitely not alone.